ever felt like you have so much to say,
to a certain someone, but you just end up not talking about it?
or when you actually sit down and think,
after the moment passes,
about what the whole conversation was about,
and realised that you should have said this or that,
and not just laugh awkwardly?
and when that someone asks you if theres anything,
which you actually wanna talk about, or say,
and you just go "no" before even thinking?
i know it happens to me ALL THE TIME.
and sometimes, i feel like smacking myself in my head,
for being so dumb.
cos it leaves me wondering,
how the whole conversation would have turned out,
and what direction would it have gone into.
it would have also allowed me to finally find,
all those answers i've been looking for. well maybe.
whats keeps me from asking,
or saying whats on my mind?
is it the fear of what that someone would think?
or the fear of what that someone would say?
i think its the combination of many reasons,
reasons which we all know, somewhere at the back of our heads,
or somewhere deep down,
in that very little corner of our hearts. the question is, why dont we overcome these fears,
or all the excuses which we ourselves have created?
is it because we want to live in denial,
in a bubble which keeps us from the reality of things,
to so-call protect ourselves from all the hurt and the pain?
that, would differ from each individual.
i have yet to overcome this "issue", that i know.
when? i dont know just yet.
