Words Always Heal

Scattered Rambling

2012-01-21T18:07:00.001+08:00

this post is gonna be pretty scattered in terms of the flow cos i'm just gonna type whatever comes to mind :D

so everyone has left for their respective hometown, leaving not only my house empty, but also leaving kl a whole lot less jammed :) unfortunately for those in penang, its jammed no matter where you go. lets hope by the time i go back on wednesday, half the outstation-ers decide to pig out at home or something, so i can terrorize the empty streets :D

anyway, i said i'd update on the penang trip i had in december. well, i guess i got lazy. first two weeks of uni have passed. good news, bad news, all in one. more of bad than good though. hope it doesnt stay that way? well i shall not allow that to happen :) been making it a habit to study every night before i sleep. yea. i can imagine some of you reading would have collapsed due to a heart attack or something. but seriously. i've actually been studying. talk about weird. nerd mode : ON. well except for last night, that is.

you'd imagine that with the internet down for like.. two days (cos Alvin forgot to pay the bill. lol), i would have at least got some studying done yesterday. apparently not. being all alone in desa, without an internet connection, without any series left to watch, and no new songs to play on the guitar, kinda leaves you.. depressed =.= pretty much explains the unproductive-ness of yesterday. UNTIL wai kit decided to interrupt my bonding session with Kung Fu Panda on tv (yes, i was watching Po, dont judge me! lol) and suggested clubbing. finally, something to do. talk about last minute plans =.= lol. went to Vertigo. first timet here. gotta say, definitely beats Mist. Why? dancefloor, music, and crowd at vertigo was a whole lot better than Mist. i guess Mist is convenient cos its near Aaron's place. lol.

anyway the alone-ness will be ending tomorrow when i head to the airport :) indonesia, here i come. lets hope i dont die to an earthquake, tsunami or some volcano eruption. bird flu as well. gosh. stress =.= lol anyway i shall stop rambling now, since none of this make any sense anyway.

happy CNY to those celebrating it! :)

ang pows are always welcomed, thank you. (of course with cash in it) :)

A Little Of Everything

2012-01-06T09:30:00.001+08:00

loving this song thanks to emmy. if you cant view through the blog, go here.

it has been a while since i updated. will do so, soon. too busy unpacking my stuff. for those of you who didnt know, i'm finally out of the ~~jail~~ hostel :D

will be updating on the two weeks back in penang. but only when i feel less of a pig and more of a human being.

uni will be starting again in 3 days. hello, 3rd year. already feeling kinda lifeless, so thesis, please be nice to me.

Of Weddings and Ceremonies, Bollywood Style

2011-12-13T11:42:00.001+08:00

to the sister of mine in india, this is what you missed while you were counting buffaloes in india.

to the cousin in perth, sneak peak to what an indian wedding is like, sort of. the pre stuff and the dinner. lol. (its ok sash, i didnt know all this stuff existed. sesat much right? XD)

anyway, attended my cousin's pre-wedding ceremony thingy, and wedding dinner. note to self: if i were to get married to and indian who's Hindu, none of these ceremonies will/shall take place. i will just elope. or a simple garden wedding overlooking the sea :D sounds good, no? yes? yes. lol. anyway, didnt know all these ceremonies existed and i had no idea what they're for or what they're called. thats what happens when you're half chinese. LOL. didnt take many pictures cos there were many other ppl taking,

so. here are some of the many i DID take :D for the sake of my sister. i deserve an award for being such an awesome sister *hints* ngehehe :D

prayer stuff. and. erm. stuff? yea.

food. the best part of any function :D

the worlds laziest dog, Mario :)

Mum and Dad with cousin

Mum :D

Dad :D

mum being lost in what she's donig too. haha.

the bride

Cousin; Piriya

mum; doing what the bride's aunt is supposed to do.
i dont know what though.

that was the function in the morning, moving on to the one at night. you see what i mean by too many ceremonies for a wedding?! yeaaa =.=

Chocolate Mint cake made by mum, tasted so freaking good!

the function at night, apparently has to be done by the uncle aka my dad.
i find it weird but. hmm okay

parents again

Cousins

parents watching their drama =.=

cousin-bonding/updating/gossiping time

The next weekend, wedding dinner

the wedding car

Bride and Groom

Mum; one of the wedding planners. lol

Better with the lights out?

1984 till now :D

The younger generation

Family picture, sister not here though, unfortunately

skinny ass and I :D

picture-fied post. it has been a while since i've done that.

didnt take any pictures of the after-party us cousins had but lets just say it was the most impromptu thing, and well. weird. lol. sister of mine, you should have been around. never mind, the next wedding would be yours anyway, so yea. :D

String of Thoughts

2011-12-05T22:10:00.001+08:00

if you have issues with someone, talk to them about it instead of talking about them to others

decide if you wanna be nice or an ass. not both.

when you're surrounded by people who arent who they seem to be, you just stop bothering to be nice.

some people are so childish, they actually ignore others when they're left out of group plans.

you're so fickle minded that you're constantly sitting on the fence.

i know way too many people who are trying to be "Mr Nice Guy" to both sides.

those who change the way they treat someone just cos one of the group members does so, are people i'd like to refer to as those who have no stand in life.

self-invitation is something someone desperate would do. just saying.

someone you hardly know would seem nice and friendly. truth is, they can be the most manipulative person you've ever met.

all the crap you throw at me just proves that i'm a threat to you, and how insecure you really are.

being surrounded by many doesnt measure how happy you are, cos nobody is truly there for you. something i dont have to worry about.

there's only so many times you can get away with your sly plans, cos karma's a bitch. i'm sure you know that by now.

nothing beats the feeling of getting to watch someone get a taste of their own poison. especially when you did nothing to make it happen. told you karma's a bitch.

Last Friday Night

2011-11-26T12:45:00.001+08:00

Had a pretty good de-stressing night just before facing the tsunami of assignments which were just waiting to drown me.

Awesome friends. Not so awesome music. Mad crowd. That night, summarized. :D

Jimmy and Wai Kit
:)

Sze Mun; so tiny, you'd lose her in a crowd. lol

Us girls; Sze Mun, Carel

Some of the guys

Mentally challenged friend of mine XD

Aaron; we can never seem to get a nice picture together :/

Shots

And more of the guys

yes, it was a good night indeed. and yes i was de-stressed. but my atm sure was stressed after that.! opportunity cost. lol.

all pictures are courtesy of sze mun and sheylen

Doubts

2011-10-23T01:49:00.004+08:00

You know how you can be so sure about something, yet doubt it with all your heart?

Thinking everything will be okay, but at the very same time, feeling like something's just gonna happen to mess that up?

Or constantly thinking about something you know you shouldn't be thinking about?

The question is, how is it that something you were so sure about, suddenly turn into something thats just filled with doubts?

Was it the right thing to do? Was it something that was not thoroughly thought about?

Suddenly, everything seems messed up. Doubted. Wrong.

And unsurprisingly, indescribable.

It's Not Always A Bad Thing

2011-10-15T18:46:00.001+08:00

we argue, we get hurt. we get angry. it happens all the time.

friends, family, boyfriends, girlfriends.

and we think its never a good thing, arguing.

i beg to differ though. yes, we do not like how it feels.

but if we were to break it all down, and reason,

you'd find that arguments aren't always bad.

and no, i'm not crazy. look at it this way.

when we argue, it hurts, or we get disappointed, or get angry.

and we feel that way cos we expect more of the relationship.

the reason why we expect more is that it's important, and it matters.

it means something. isn't it good that it means something to you?

so yea. to those who always feel down when you argue, this post is for you.

at the end of the day, you should always feel a little glad.

the negative isn't always negative. or doesn't always stay that way.

at least to me, this is how i'd like to look at it. besides, a little optimism wouldn't kill.

Could It Get Any Worse?

2011-10-14T01:08:00.002+08:00

Presentation didnt go as well as i expected. frustrated.

Forgot to attend an experiment session, so its an extra 30-min session to attend. annoyed at myself

Trial run was pretty much a disaster. disappointed.

If the week could get any worse, i have nothing to say.

And i seriously think its the worst week i've had this entire semester.

i think that pretty much sums it all up.

What I Really Think

2011-09-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

everyone has their limits. no matter how patient some one may be, cross that line and its like all hell breaks lose. when it comes to teasing someone about something, yea, its funny the first few times. more than that, its just plain annoying already. it may be funny to you, but how do you think the person you're talking about feels? they may smile and laugh it off. but on the inside, its a different reaction all together. whether is calling someone fat, or calling someone ugly. whether its making fun of them racially or in terms of their religion. its really not funny. so stop living in that bubble of yours, thinking its okay to just insult or crack jokes like that. cos contrary to what you may think, its really not that funny after all. people just tend to oblige and humor you, instead of saying to your face 'shut the hell up' or just punch you. or slap you. though that happens in some of our heads a lot.

yea we know how screwed up society is. you're fat if you're not skinny. the whole social stigma about fat people and stuff. and religion. you're allowed to be insulted/born to be insulted if you're a minority (even if you're the only one of the majority race in a social group) like, just cos the majority of the group is Chinese, everyone else is allowed to be insulted or made fun of. its seriously annoying and it pisses me off like hell.

that girl you ugly or fat. its not her fault, and most of the time, its biological. its not her fault she doesn't look like your ideal plastic-kind-of-perfect person. its in the genes. so you wanna blame he parents? well they got their genes from their parents too. so who do you wanna go on blaming then? Adam and Eve? or God himself? to you, she's just a fat and ugly person. to someone, she's everything and more. you really wouldn't want someone to ask you if you have a mirror at home, do you? its not like you're perfect anyway. unless you want a mirror as a birthday present, look at yourself before passing judgment about others. and that girl you call fat? she may have a bigger heart that your skinny ass. if you even have one visible enough, that is.

and those racial and religion-based jokes or comments people tend to make. its seriously insensitive. so much for being cultured and sensitive to the feelings of others around you. whats worse if things like this come from those who are majoring in a social science, who study things revolving around this issue. yea I'm half Indian, half Chinese. and i may be more inclined towards my Chinese side in me, but that doesn't mean you get to insult or make racist jokes about the other race I'm made of.

sometimes, the urge to convey my thoughts, unfiltered, is so high. but those words may cut so deep that it'll just create more problems. or you're just too dense to even get it. trust me when i say I'm not the only one who thinks this way. people just keep quiet to avoid problems. and those judgments people tend to pass bout someone's behaviour? lets just say some of us are more mature and have reasons to the things we do and do not do. i'm no even gonna talk about that cos that itself could be one whole post already.

anyway. I'm not saying we cant joke around and stuff. its just that there is a limit to everything. if your mouth keeps spitting out comments or insults all day, you're just becoming a real pain in the ass. stop being so insensitive. and seriously, people like that should learn to grow up and think their age. harsh, but true. i'm not going to apologize for speaking my mind, or just cos i have a different opinion from the majority.

*this post isnt directed to anyone in particular but more of a general opinion i have on the issue due to recent happening around me. kinda got me thinking*

One Of My Favourite Virgos

2011-09-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

pic courtesy of adelene

Dear Aaron,

First of all, we NEED to take more pictures together. there are so few, its actually depressing =.=

lol. nvm, we shall take more pics when you're back in 50days time okay? :)

anyway, happy birthday! :D its surprising you're only 20 when you dont think like one. i mean this in a good way, of course :D you're more mature than most of the 20-yr-olds i know. mature does not mean less retarded, of course XD speaking of retarded, i went to urban dictionary and saw this:

One of the most amazing people in the world. People named Aaron have an independent streak which makes them challenge the world. They are quiet and like their alone-time; however, they open up more and play around when their friends are around. People named Aaron are truly special. They can light up someone's world and the two of them can dance a dance of immense freedom. People named Aaron have curious minds that jump from idea to idea. (Each idea being spontaneous, crazy, and absurd.) They are usually shy to people they don't know, but shine when they are around people they are comfortable with. They are beautiful people, inside and out, who will go far in life with their determination and amazing sense of humour. People named Aaron are funny and can keep others entertained easily. They are easy to fall for and easy to make friends with. All in all, they are one of the most amazing people you will meet.

thats what urban dictionary says about your name. haha. well it does describe part of you, especially the first and the last line of it :)

i've known you for less than a year but look where we are now :) i'm glad i have you to call my really close buddy :) thank you for everything. all those long msn chats while you're in Perth, and all the small things you say, they mean a lot. they've made me get through my rough days, and made me look at things differently. i can say all the usual stuff like how you've always been there and all, but you already know those. so i'm just gonna tell you that i'm really thankful that i have you as a friend, and i mean that. cos sometimes, even words cant describe some things i wish to say. all i can hope for is that you know i mean what i say.

have a good one in Perth, okay? and of course, update me if anything interesting happens while you're out partying or something ;) cant wait for you to be back cos i miss you loads! and all your craziness. 50 more days, i'm so excited, its making me wanna roll around :D haha. Happy birthday again, aaron.

Lots of love, me.

Bits And Pieces Of Today

2011-09-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

Went for today's University Live Event in uni (duh its uni live. lol) to look at the clubs being promoted. I figured that i better join something before i die of boredom and stress from assignments. Yea, this sem is by far the most stressful and packed one, but i need something to do, to keep my mind off studying for a while. The one thing i had in mind was that i wanted to sing again. I really miss those times in school when choir and quartet events made me so happy. Its the love, i guess. Entered the DSA and the choir club reps were the first to approach me. Do i want to join? Yes. Shoud i join? I dont know. After looking at their photos on facebook, i actually felt nervous. Thats not the worst part. I was wondering why was i nervous about something i love, and something i've had so much experience in? That was the most disturbing part. And because of that, i dont know if i should join. Decisions, decisions. Moving on.

Bought lemon meringues to support the fund-raiser for our Psychology Annual Ball. Was talking to Jes and decided to be part of it, partly thanks to Desmond as well. At least going to the ball would mean more if you're part of the process, even if its just a small role you played. And then there was the Halloween event. Decided to help out under the decoration team. Yes, i finally have some life in uni. Parents might not be too happy bout this but I think I can handle it. Its not gonna be easy to juggle the 6 papers i'm taking, and all of these, but its not impossible. And i get to meet more people. Things can get depressing when the only people you know are those in your class. So yea. I enter the DSA for 30minutes and I have a life. Not bad at all. The only dilemma is whether i should join the choral group. Its just ridiculous to feel this way about something i love doing. *sigh*

Anyway for those of you who didnt know, 3rd sem of 2nd year has started after a 6-week break. Assignments flowing in from all angles, makes you feel like you're gonna drown or die while doing research or something =.=

Had the first discussion for an assignment today with Jack, Wai Kit, Des and Damian, in the hostel cafe. Being there with friends makes the place feel so much better. That warm feeling you dont really know how to explain? Yea that. Cos it can get quite discouraging and depressing to not know anyone in the hostel, or to be in the cafe alone when you see everyone around you sitting with at least one person. If only I could have that feeling i had, everyday or whenever i'm in the cafe. Its all the little things like that, that make my day. Everything that happened today, from the moment i stepped into the DSA, until now, i've been feeling rather happy. Like something has changed, in a good way. I guess the mood of those around you does play a role as well. Lets hope this lasts.

p/s. 58 days

Nice Inside Out? Or Just On The Outside?

2011-09-07T22:40:00.001+08:00

lets be a little direct and truthful. life's a bitch. well it can be, at times.

at times, its just rainbows and the birds and the bees.

life's so complicated and complex that when someone's nice to you, you doubt their actions.

you wonder if they're being true in those actions or if they're just going to screw you over.

cos you've been dealt with the same stuff over and over, till you're just waiting for the other shoe to drop. brutally.

i mean, it makes sense if you were to look at it from a perspective like, say, conditioning?

especially when its the same person, or people, who execute their schemes all the time.

and we wonder why is it that people have trust issues? you'll get it once you've been made to trust someone, only to be treated in a way that you never thought would even be possible.

if there's a reason, good. but what if there isn't?

makes you doubt a whole lot more. not to mention, makes you trust a lot less.

the question is, who's truly nice, and who's just gonna screw you over?

you'll know in time.

Circle

2011-08-25T01:34:00.002+08:00

you keep going round,

in a never-ending cycle.

repeating everything that has happened,

over and over again.

Here And Now

2011-08-21T01:09:00.003+08:00

the stories we tell, the truth we hide.

all for the sake of protecting our feelings.

or even for protecting our self-esteem.

but those who lie, know the truth.

the truth that haunts every now and then.

who harbours the pain and hurt in the end?

i guess it serves its purpose at that point in time,

but in the end, we're only hurting ourselves with these lies.

but then again, human nature? maybe.

My Special Freaks

2011-08-20T01:49:00.001+08:00

was looking at all the old SAM pictures. its scary, how time flies.

everyone's scattered all over the globe now. and i realised one thing.

i miss my freaks :(

faster come back laaaaaaa! :(

Pretty Girls

2011-08-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

One Sentence

2011-08-14T03:21:00.003+08:00

sometimes, you say things i do not understand.

do you really mean them as they were told?

or did it just come out wrong?

you confuse me, you frustrate me, and you drive me crazy.

before we know it, we're arguing about what has been said.

wanting to know the meaning behind it.

wanting to know the emotion felt behind that every word.

and in the process of it all, both parties end up getting hurt.

cos what has been said, wont go away. those words, cant be taken back.

and the memory of the way it made you and i feel,

it changes a lot of things.

all that because of one sentence that started it all.

One

Communication? What Communication?

2011-08-12T22:06:00.003+08:00

we make decisions after we weigh our options,

or after we reason it out in our head.

whatever it is, there is a reason behind every decision we make in our lives.

thinking that should be the case for everyone, you ask 'why' when you're denied something.

and at that moment, that word 'why' becomes the prohibited word.

and you are not given any explanation, but you're shut down.

to make it worse, you were belittled just before being shut down.

just like that. frustrating isnt it?

early stages of a total communication catastrophe. mark my words.

Daryl

2011-08-10T20:18:00.005+08:00

Dear dEryl,

where shall i start? well i'm pretty sure you remember how we became friends? you were the new guy in SAM, sitting all alone in the cafeteria. and i went and talked to you. so weird, i dont usually do that. well, thats why you should consider yourself VERY lucky ;) haha kidding. and i remember you asking me questions on bio in the library!! lol. few months down that year and we became close.

we've had our good times and bad. the super-lame-can-die moments, our arguments which were pretty often at one point, our heart-to-heart talks, and those moments where we were honest bout our good and bad sides. i remember skipping classes with you, and YOU skipping math to eat and talk in the cafeteria!!! haha best moments! and the times when we just fooled around about... almost everything? also, you were my dance partner during our SAM Night performance (points below). sorry for all the... erm.. pain i put you through. your foot, fingers and nose :D

despite all that we've been through, i'm glad our friendship is still going strong. although we've drifted apart slightly ever since uni happened in my life, i still care as much as i did back in SAM. may no show it but i do :)

3 years down our friendship and you're now leaving the nest for US of A. something you've always wanted. i'm gonna miss you :( i mean it. cos who's gonna be more retarded than me now that you're gonna be in the US? :( lets face it, your lameness is at par with mine okay. be proud! lol. anyway, i know its difficult to leave everyone here, going to a new place altogether. just remember how hard you worked for this. and remember how you never gave up despite many people doubted you, or suggested something else cos they thought US was gonna be a far fetch. well look at where you are now? you're all packed, and leaving tomorrow! well technically as i write this you're STILL packing but. yea. lol.

never told you this but i'm proud of you for not giving up on your hopes and dreams. pretty different from the Deryl back in SAM during our Human Awareness Essay in jon's house :) i know i wont have time to say all this at the airport tomorrow hence the post.

best of luck when you're there, and do take care okay? you earned this opportunity. stay strong no matter what. promise me that okay? love you loads.
p/s. and deryl.. yes you're good looking. YOU HAPPY NOW?! lol

Holes Inside

2011-08-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

Take It To The Hole

2011-08-08T20:09:00.001+08:00

Annoyingly addictive

That's All You Do

2011-08-07T21:30:00.003+08:00

if all you're gonna do is shout,

all i'm gonna do is shut out the noise.

if all you're gonna do is to make me sound like a person who is self-absorbed and does not care about others around me,

you're just gonna make me push you further from me.

if all you're gonna do is judge the person i've become based on one situation,

you're never gonna know who i have grown to become in the past three years.

if all you're gonna do is assume things about me,

you're never gonna get the honesty cos there's no use explaining anyway.

why? cos you're not gonna listen. so much for being rational?

i have so much more to say but i'm holding back cos of who you are to me.

the rest of the lines shall be written in my mind.

p/s. in case you've forgotten, i'm pretty hard-headed myself. no amount of reverse psych is gonna work. why? i figure out every possibility to the reason why you're saying what you're saying.

Good Life

2011-08-03T11:07:00.000+08:00

loving this cover! :)

4 Hours Of Retarded-ness

2011-08-03T00:42:00.006+08:00

lunch with emmy at Sakae in Tesco (yes, tesco. lol) and coffee in Dome at Straits Quay + talking about anything and everything under the sun! not to mention, so many retarded moments. yea do not be fooled by her sweet looks =.= so. very. deceiving. haha!

had an awesome time with you today. as always. :)

and who knew we're actually similar in so many ways, eh? haha.

see you again soon, woman! REAL SOON. XD

Lies vs. Truth

2011-07-31T19:06:00.002+08:00

have you ever wondered why some people lie or hide certain things from being known?

its because of the response you get, or all the negativity you get, after you tell the truth. or at least try to.

sometimes, these things are the ones that force us to lie, or hide things from others.

we think that its best to be honest, to come clean. but i guess that only happens in fairy tales?

and we know that 'reality' and 'fairytale' are two words that are placed on two totally opposite ends.

i guess honesty isnt always the best thing huh? its no wonder why people choose to lie.

everything seems a lot better and easier when we lie.i'm not saying its a good thing to lie, but sometimes, its the only option we have

Coffee = Ganja

2011-07-29T00:42:00.004+08:00

breakfast/brunch with Ms Lai and baby Julian. utter cuteness :D went to Old Town in town. lol. i think its the awesome-est Old Town i've been to. interior and stuff. i likeee :D

#1

2011-07-27T18:02:00.005+08:00

first outing in penang, minus when i met up for bfast with ms lai and yue shern :)

lunch at Sakae, then went to...

for crepe...

with the bestie who pretends to be normal...

when she's actually like this...

felt good meeting up after so long. sort of. lol. more to come! :D have fun in Hong Kong, bitch! XD

Don't Hold Your Breath

2011-07-23T11:59:00.001+08:00

Nerd Mode: OFF

2011-07-20T18:46:00.003+08:00

second year second sem, finally over. hello, my long-awaited 6-week break! :D

will have a proper update soon. an update with pictures. yes it has been long since this blog had pictures :) cos my camera died but anywayyyy. will update on genting and ipoh and then penang :D soon.

Nerd Mode: OFF

=.=

2011-07-14T20:37:00.002+08:00

this picture was taken the last time you left. didnt know monday was the last time i was gonna be meeting you before you leave tonight :( i didnt think i would miss you THAT much (got la just not THAT much k. heh) but after i hung up when you called, it suddenly hit me that i'll miss you. and whatever you said on the phone made me miss you more! :(

but one thing i wont miss bout you... how you love spreading your FRAGRANCE =.= i will not be missing THAT. haha. take care when you're back there and remember what i told you bout the 'grass' okay? :D will see you in november! lots of =.= love :D

Notorious

2011-07-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

Stop. Think. Reflect.

2011-07-13T23:49:00.005+08:00

one thing some people fail to forget is that its not that we do not try to uphold a friendship or relationship. the effort is made when time permits, when work does not get in the way of just "hanging out" or "talking about anything and everything". cos most of us have obligations to fulfill. its called studies. what's worse? its funny when they think they've been forgotten, when they're the ones who forget their old friends once they find new ones. easy to just point fingers, huh?
whats worse? some assume that because on has a significant other, they would forget their friends. 2 words. grow up. not everyone would do that. sometimes, the effort is made but to no avail. stuff like this tend to happen all the time because one thing many fail to do is to spend time to reason, or to reflect.

stop. think. reflect.

p/s. you can hate me for my honesty, but its not gonna matter to me

1: 1 000

2011-07-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

when i feel down, its pictures like this that make me smile. one picture, so many memories. love you both.

Without You

2011-07-12T22:45:00.002+08:00

What AJ Rafael wrote:

I wrote this song not about a death or losing someone to an illness, but about wanting to be with someone so bad that you couldn't go another day without them-- but this song spoke differently to my Kuya Frank's wife Ate Rhea. She told me that she listened to this song as if it was Kuya Frank singing to her, fighting for her, and wanting to be there for her through all of this. Thus, the original concept for this video was born and it stuck in my head-- and I pray that this video helps you realize that you are not alone in your struggle, whether it is you or a loved one going through it.

Don't forget to let your loved ones know that you love them. We never know what tomorrow might bring.

somewhat related to my previous post, though not directly. thanks to emmy for introducing this song to me. loving every bit of it, even the piano piece at the end.

Why Hate When You Can Love?

2011-07-12T00:14:00.003+08:00

i know i may not be one who forgives and forgets easily,

neither am i one who would just 'let it go'.

yes, things get to me pretty easily at times.

but that will change in time. soon.

well at least i'm doing my best to change that,

so in time, things will be different.

cos what's the point of hating when you can love?

why be angry when you can be happy?

why be vengeful when you can forgive?

why the sudden realization? well lets just say,one day,

i woke up from bed, and it dawned upon me,

that this world is full of hatred, instead of love.

so i've decided that everyday,

i'm gonna put a smile on at least one person's face.

everyday, i'm gonna make a difference in someone else's life,

and everyday, i'm gonna tell at least one person whom i love,

that i love them. cos we hardly say it out loud till its too late.

and unless you say it, they may not know it.

i've already told someone for today. have you? :)

p/s. 123 days (miscalculated the other day XD)

Best Thing I Never Had

2011-07-10T23:10:00.001+08:00

The Element Of Surprise

2011-07-10T11:07:00.004+08:00

i spent all this time building you up in my head as some big bad monster.

truth is, you're nothing but a sad pathetic little person,

who has to put others down to make herself look big.

you've got no power over me.

i'm not afraid of you.

instead, i pity you.

and well, i forgive you.

you're just lost and insecure.

cos people who do things like that,

well, they're just longing for all the attention they've always lacked.

just remember this; you can make people look bad, and feel bad for a while.

but that will just make them stronger from the inside.

so in a way, thank you, for all that you've done.

like i once said, all the rocks you throw along my path,

they just make me stronger from overcoming those obstacles.

so you tell me. who's the winner now?

p/s. what defines us is how we rise from the fall

20 days

2011-07-08T00:18:00.002+08:00

20 days ago, we were joking about you being back in kl. the next thing i knew, you were outside, blasting big bang's tonight in your car. the first thing you did when i saw you, was that you made me cry.

today, you sent me back, with big bang's tonight playing again. and the last thing you did before leaving, again, was that you made me cry.

thank you for the 20 days which made everything seem better. i miss you already. just as soon as you turned the corner. november 11th. i'll be counting down to that day. take care when you're back in Perth. love you loads.

p/s. 124 days

I Smile

2011-07-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

There Isn't Any Flow, But Oh Well

2011-07-03T19:30:00.003+08:00

so them aussie boys are back. aaron, kah ken and jacky.

its nice having them back, its never a dull day.

seriously miss them like crazy!

apart from all the funny talks and eating,

Mist on Friday was good, with a majority of those i love,

along with new-found-buddies from ipoh. instant bond, i like!

good music and first time actually being able to enjoy in a club,

although it was super packed like sardine,

and my feet hurt so badly i actually considered rolling back to the car =.=

Caught and early flight out of kl the next morning (more like 2hours later),

so yes, i am back in penang now. no eating spree this time. lol.

Early morning flight back to kl tomorrow. i NEED to hibernate =.=

Finals begin this friday, till next saturday.

then its FREEDOMMM! *sniff sniff* i smell it!! :D

thats pretty much whats happening now :)

20-Year-Old Duckling

2011-07-03T14:33:00.003+08:00

I may not have known you for long, but 3 years is pretty alright, no? 3 years since the annoying "whatever" syndrome!! this picture. last day of SAM. LOL.

well. we've had our arguments, our drama and fights. but we've also had lots of good times, and those are the ones that matter. well, you've earned a space on my blog on your birthday. thats an honor already, so appreciate this! haha! yes we annoy each other a lot, thats for sure, but we listen to each others rants as well. especially lately :) good to know that things got better after a rough patch in our friendship. thanks for everything i've not thanked you for.

here's to many more years of annoying your soul :D

happy birthday, yellow duckling!

lots of loveeeee, rolling pink pig :D

Smaller Than A Speck Of Dust

2011-06-28T17:22:00.003+08:00

if you have issues, face them, and deal with them.

do not be a bitch just cos you're insecure,

or if you think that'll give you a better life than mine.

you can try, but you'll never succeed with your scheming.

cos unlike you, i know for a fact, that i've got REAL friends out there.

people who really care, people who've got my back no matter what.

thats one thing you will never have.

smaller than a speck of dust, thats what you are to me.

so minute, that you're insignificant.

thats all i have to say to you, so have a nice life.

E Poh

2011-06-26T12:43:00.003+08:00

last minute decision, but no regrets.

last night was awesome.

the place, the company, the happenings.

euro house to jacky's place,

it has been a while since i've enjoyed so much.

best part? it was with those who matter to me.

ipoh, in one night.

Sunshine On A Rainy Day

2011-06-19T06:03:00.003+08:00

we may not show it,

we may not notice it ourselves.

but when you see that someone,

their presence makes you realize,

that you've missed them all along.

and sometimes, just knowing they're around,

makes everything seem a lot better.

I've missed you.

Next To You

2011-06-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

The Little Pleasures In Life

2011-06-16T19:57:00.003+08:00

i wanna play under the rain,

lie in the middle of an empty street,

sit by the beach all day long,

sit on the rooftop of a building,

dance like nobody's watching,

sing like nobody's listening.

all that, with those who matter.

More Is Less?

2011-06-16T18:29:00.003+08:00

the more you invest in something, the more returns you get

the more you give, the more you get

the more you care, the more you'll be cared for.

the more you try, the higher your chances at succeeding.

i can honestly say that doesnt apply most of the time.

makes me wonder at times, why bother.

Stuttering

2011-06-12T13:09:00.000+08:00

heard this song on hellcats, loving it!!

I Wont Give Up

2011-06-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

California King Bed

2011-06-09T02:12:00.001+08:00

this song doesnt sound like something rihanna would normally sing but i'm liking it. something different from her.

Now?

2011-06-01T17:54:00.002+08:00

you know that moment when whatever you do or say seems wrong?

or comes across wrongly?

and whatever you do just makes no difference to a situation?

yea well, that pretty much sums it up.

Crash

2011-05-31T21:06:00.000+08:00

3-In-1

2011-05-29T17:36:00.002+08:00

liking this song thanks to nicole :)

thanks to priya

Them Birthday People

2011-05-28T10:58:00.003+08:00

desmond's birthday last night, had fun. will update once the pictures are up from the rest.

kylie, i owe you a blog post. it will be up soon i promise! happy belated birthday. lots of love, your mama pig :D

Baby I'm Amazed By You

2011-05-24T21:16:00.001+08:00

loved this song since ages ago. forgot bout it. stumbled upon it again. re-loving it :)

Friends With Benefits

2011-05-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

LOL. a must-watch :D

Beautiful Like You

2011-05-23T20:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes is hard to be

Yourself in this crazy world

Sometimes is hard to breath

Yeah

Why?

2011-05-23T19:49:00.004+08:00

why do people love to boast about their results?

seriously i dont get it. they say it in the most subtle manner but its pretty obvious what they're trying to do. people arent gonna like it if you keep doing the same thing, every single time. we dont need to know how good you are at memorizing stuff from the textbook. so please, just ~~shut up~~ keep it to yourself.

why do people do thing they themselves dislike?

many of us force ourselves to attend outings or events we're not even willing to. some do that to be accepted by their peers. but whats the point if at the end of the day, you dont even enjoy yourself? whats the point if at the end of the day, you get more frustrated just to make others happy? just to be accepted? just to be part of the "gang"? if these so-called friends judge you and cant accept the fact that thats not what you wanna do, ~~to hell with them~~ so be it. they're called acquaintances. friendships arent measured by how often you go out together.

why do people force their ideas upon others?

different people have different opinions, thoughts, perspectives. if you cant deal with rejection, you're gonna have a hard time in life. not everything is gonna go your way. you may be forcing others to accept you, your ideas, or attitudes by leaving them no choice. how long is that gonna last? grow up.

why do some people judge you or call you names just cos you're a non-conformist?

i dont get it. so what if someone is doing something right? you say all sorts of things just cos its not the norm? i think its just something you wish you could do without being afraid to do it. so much for individuality?

why do some people love making you the dirty job?

one word. COWARD.

we often find ourselves doing things to please others, we often find ourselves to be in the out-group.

we often find ourselves being judged for the things we do in life, we're often forced to be nice. and then a thought dawns upon you. it dawns upon you that you were never really treated like you were truly part of the group, or you realize that you will just be disappointed by those whom you thought you could always count on.

thats probably the moment when you ask yourself this; what do you mean to them?

and at that moment, you'd probably realize they're not worth it.
i can go on. so many questions, so many frustrating thoughts to let out. but i'll leave that for another day. i shall do this more often.

Say Hello To Goodbye

2011-05-23T16:28:00.000+08:00

Fast 5

2011-05-19T18:59:00.001+08:00

loved Fast 5. hot people, fast cars, funny lines and of course, an awesome song.

Poison & Wine

2011-05-19T16:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes. Not Always.

2011-05-18T01:34:00.005+08:00

"everybody hurts just a little too much"

"sometimes it hits like car crash, and its too late to reverse"

thats why sometimes, its easier to not feel at all.

its easier if emotions could be turned off using a switch.

cos when it hits you, you're almost never prepared,

making the impact a whole lot worse.

Little Too Much

2011-05-16T21:51:00.001+08:00

loved the movie, love the song. thanks to emmy for introducing it to me :)

Goodbye For Now

2011-05-14T18:58:00.002+08:00

2 weeks in penang.

did i have fun? yes and no.

am i sick of the food? no.

sick of driving? slightly.

sick of gurney? VERY.

sick of going out? yes. very.

i'm actually slightly glad the holidays are ending.

2nd Sem of 2nd year, please be nice to me, thank you.

back to kl 2mrw, then its nerd mode: ON.

holidays, goodbye. for now :)

Stuck Like Glue

2011-05-14T10:15:00.001+08:00

cant get this song out of my head! lol. its kinda cute. and happy :)

Maybe

2011-05-13T02:18:00.000+08:00

13 Years And Counting

2011-05-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

dear fione. please dont kill me for the horrible picture. we dont have many presentable ones together. lol. so this shall have to do :)

you were my first friend in standard one. we got to know each other cos we were made to follow each other to the toilet! omg. haha. weird but. hmmm. lol. 13 years of friendship. we had our good and bad moments throughout. above all the childish arguments we've had, i'm very sure you're one of those who is worth keeping as a friend. it was nice meeting up for lunch yesterday, finally able to catch up on stuff. pretty awesome ending up in the same college after spm, eh? :)

we've had many fond memories throughout our friendship. even those times when i was at your place after choir competition once, or when you came over to my place to eat and just chat. good times :) here's to many more of those. happy 20th, birthday, first school buddy of mine. you've come a long way and you've really grown (i mean mentally. LOL) just remember that i'll always be here for you, k? :)

love you loads.

Dont Turn Out The Lights

2011-05-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

An Awkward Question Which Led To An Awesome Bond

2011-05-11T00:07:00.003+08:00

ok first of all, WE NEED TO TAKE MORE PICTURES TOGETHER LA DEI! this is the only pic we have. after 7 years of friendship =.= its depressing. LOL.

i remember getting to know you during Mr Low's tuition in form 1! the pretty girl who always sat a row behind us MGS girls :) weird how we became friends, i think i asked you some weird question. was it about an eraser?! lol. and look at us now, so close. haha. awesome or what? LOL. the next thing we knew, we were going to the same tuitions till form 5.

i'm glad i have you as a friend, really. you should feel honoured right about now. haha! sorry, perasan moment :D

i will never forget those times when we talked about stuff that was on our minds, helping each other out, listening, laughing like crazy, helping each other survive the torture of having to sit through certain tuitions. lol. good times. and thank god they're not ending anytime soon :) here's to many more years of awesome bonding, emmy! happy 20th birthday.

i'm spending it with you. lol i just realized. *cue for you to feel honoured, again*

anyway welcome to Old-hood :D

love you loads!

Sort-of-an-update Post

2011-05-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

it has been a while since i blogged about anything. anyway, random stuff.

taylors lakeside campus. it actually looks like a campus unlike HELP

jimmy came over for the weekend, eating spree :D

the chocolate molten that was sorta attacked before the picture was taken. so sweet can die =.=

first meal :D helloooooo, lobster! *waves :D

didnt take many pictures.. actually. no pictures except these three here but hope you had a good time. and hope you did put on weight. eheheh :D

Thank You(s)

2011-05-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

i know its a little late but thanks to those who wished me through text, calls, facebook, and blogs/tumblr

and to the uni gang, thanks for the cake :)

kylie, thanks for the post that reminded me of SAM days. click here to read

yan, the weird best friend, thanks for you post that made me laugh. still makes me wonder how you're my bestie when you're so retarded. click here to read

and nicole, another one i'd call my best friend, we've come a very long way since we got to know each other. thank you, your post made me cry like and idiot. haha. click here to read

Lyrics That Say It All

2011-05-05T20:14:00.004+08:00

to all those who love bringing me down, this song is for you guys. from me to you.

to those who are going through a difficult time, this song is also for you. for yourselves.

Burlesque

2011-05-05T09:28:00.002+08:00

Burlesque. love the movie, love most of the songs,love the moves, love the cast.

two of my favourite songs in the movie :D

she can sing, dance, act, is pretty AND hot (yes theres a difference between pretty and hot) *rolls over and dies*

on another note, i'll be updating my blog soon, once i get the pics uploaded :) for now, it shall remain postless till something significant happens =.=

24 on 28

2011-04-28T16:41:00.003+08:00

before you say anything about the picture, lets just say theres a reason behind it :D and what reason, you may ask? well... you see those little black dot-like stuff? yes, the sheep. your relatives. well technically you're a pig that rolls la but. o welll. heh. at least you can still roll down the hill singing the hills are aliveeeee :D hahaha! *inside joke (sash, you'll get it) o what a happy pig, no? picture it. owh what bliss! no? hahahah!

ANYWAYYYY, just wanted to wish you a very happy 24th birthday, old fart :D see you in june! lots of piggy roll loveeee, ME :D

The One With The Funny Spelling

2011-04-18T00:56:00.003+08:00

dAryl...dEryl... identity crisis. haha!

You know what you mean to me already, so i really dont have to say it all :)

thank you for everything we've been through since SAM 09. the good, the bad. the fights, the crazy stuff.

i shall see you really soon, k? miss you loads, and happy 20th birthday. feeling old, eh? hehe.

lots of love :)

Hmm

2011-04-16T23:09:00.001+08:00

What A Revelation

2011-04-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

so. people call you an anti social:

when you're quiet in class

when you say 'no' to group outings

just so you know, i believe that i do not have to say yes to something just because everyone else says yes. if i say no, i have my reasons.

you may not believe it, you may choose to believe that perception in your mind. so be it. i'm done explaining myself, my actions.

i spend on things that make me happy, that are worth spending on. its a choice i make, a choice i will never regret. not now, not in the future.

someone once told me, to always put my happiness above others'. i always found it difficult to do that for some reason. but now, its a whole lot easier. why conform and please others, only to suffer in silence, pretending to be happy?

so FYI, me saying no to group outings doesnt make me anti social, it just makes me a person who doesnt conform just to make everyone else happy.

deal with it, get over it.

Opportunity Cost?

2011-04-16T15:00:00.002+08:00

people say, when we lose something, we gain something.

thats great.

but what if its this way instead?

we gain something, and then lose something due to the gain.

is this new gain worth the loss?

does it leave you with having to make a choice?

most of the time, it does.

and most of the time, it is never easy.

p/s. i tried

Wish You Were Here

2011-04-15T19:48:00.001+08:00

This goes out to those who matter to me. You know who you guys are... I hope :)

What The Hell

2011-04-14T23:45:00.001+08:00

this is so much nicer that the original omg.

and the cutest thing... the dog jumping in the background. LOL.

and the piano part OMG *dies*

Running Away

2011-04-13T21:24:00.001+08:00

Love this song, thanks to Alvin, who used it for the closing of our Developmental Psych video :)

Love Song

2011-04-11T22:51:00.001+08:00

Almost Over

2011-04-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

so. the bigger pig is back in malaysia, cant wait to meet her.

pig=sister of mine. yes, that four legged pink-ish thing.

done with all assignments for this sem, last week of class.

finals, then its time to burn the books :D well maybe except biopsych cos i may have to retake that horrifying subject.

yes that pretty much sums up my life at the moment.

Written In The Stars

2011-04-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

LOL

2011-04-11T12:31:00.000+08:00

Slowly But Surely

2011-04-06T18:16:00.002+08:00

went to one u on Saturday, watched Hop. so cute! lol. it was an enjoyable movie, and considering how long i last entered the cinema, i sure did enjoy it :)

will be watching Love and Other Drugs on Tuesday night, thanks to FlyFm again :) hoping its good, unlike the last time i got tickets for Buried, made me wanna bury myself =.=

many more movies to come :D

i guess i'm getting my life back :)

slowly but surely.

My Horror Story

2011-03-29T18:33:00.006+08:00

updated list. yes i'm lifeless like that =.=

~~sunday,2oth- Counselling meeting and Trial run meeting~~

~~monday, 21st- counselling journal due, practice trial run~~

~~tuesday, 22nd- Actual trial run~~

~~wednesday, 23rd - Some talk on something~~

~~thurday, 24th - Biopsych test, Advanced Research test, meeting for developmental psych video~~

~~friday, 25th - sunday, 27th - i'm guessing there'll be more meetings =.=~~

~~monday, 28th - counselling audio recording and triage report due, counselling journal~~

~~monday, 28th- run 12 experiment sessions~~

~~tues, 29th - run 12 experiment sessions~~

~~wednesday, 30th - run 12 experiment sessions, biopsych replacement class~~

~~friday, 1st- developmental psych video and report due, biopsych replacement class~~

~~saturday, 2nd - colloquium~~

~~,smonday, 4th - counselling journal due~~

~~tuesday, 5th-developmental psych presentation~~

~~thursday, 7th - research experiment lab report~~

friday, 8th - start studying for finals so that i wont roll over and die out of stress by studying last minute =.=

monday, 11th - counselling journal due

tuesday, 12th- developmental psych presentation

thursday, 14th- back to penang (nerd-ing time)

saturday, 23rd- FINALS begin.. on my bday.. whyyy.... :'(

thursday, 28th - finals END. *rolls around in joyyyy :D

i'm so gonna stone and hibernate like a bear.

i deserve it =.=

*cues Bruno Mars's The Lazy Song*

Here's To My Fellow Lefties :)

2011-03-27T15:31:00.003+08:00

got this from Arjan's tumblr :)
The Quotable Lefty:

“From early on, left-handers realize that they are different from other individuals. … One of the requirements for a leader—real or aspiring—is that he or she needs to be able to anticipate what is going to happen, to think about things in unconventional ways, to see himself or herself as different from the rest of the pack.”

Howard Gardner, Leading Minds

As Good As Dead?

2011-03-19T17:13:00.002+08:00

my checklist *dies*
sunday,2oth- Counselling meeting and Trial run meeting

monday, 21st- counselling journal due, practice trial run

tuesday, 22nd- Actual trial run

wednesday, 23rd - Some talk on something

thurday, 24th - Biopsych test, Advanced Research test, meeting for developmental psych video

friday, 25th- friday, 1st- run 30 sessions of experiment *dies*

friday, 25th - sunday, 27th - i'm guessing there'll be more meetings =.=

monday, 28th - counselling audio recording and triage report due, counselling journal

friday, 1st- developmental psych video

saturday, 2nd - colloquium

tuesday, 5th-developmental psych presentation

thursday, 7th - research experiment lab report

tuesday, 12th- developmental psych presentation

thursday, 14th- BACK TO PENANG (but its a study break before finals OMG)

thursday, 21st- FINALS begin

so much for reading on lecture material after class la right =.=

just looking at this already makes me feel like dying =.=

so to those whom i promised skype/msn sessions to update you on stuff, i am so so sorry that i dont have time yet. we will/shall catch up in May when i'm not as lifeless.

God help me.

A Message To You

2011-03-14T17:15:00.003+08:00

you can hate me for all i care.

cos i know i've done nothing wrong.

if you cant handle the fact in front of you,

or the truth of things that have happened,

its time you did. its time you accepted the fact.

cos i'm not sacrificing this happiness i'm feeling.

nope not this time. and definitely not for you.

you can treat me like i'm non-existent,

like i'm totally insignificant.

you can bitch about me, you can turn others against me.

but let me tell you something. it just shows your level of maturity,

and the kind of person you really are on the inside.

i'm way past that stage, so those things you do,

they arent gonna affect me, they arent gonna make me less happy.

cos beneath all this crap your serve me with,

i've got true friends who're backing me in life.

and most importantly, my family members whom i respect and love.

unlike you. see why is it that we dont get along all the time?

we're worlds apart in so many things. and honestly, i'm glad.

as of today, you're an acquaintance, not a friend.

so yea, you can go on hating me till you lie on your deathbed, for all i care.

but all i wanna say here, is,

best of luck in becoming someone who truly cares,

and in becoming someone sincerely nice.

have a nice life.

Insensitive Much?

2011-03-13T17:30:00.003+08:00

nice. REAL nice. i think the editor is an idiot for even allowing the paper to go for printing with this in it. if this is considered a joke, well, its shallow. VERY shallow. and its now on CNN. bravo. *cues fireworks and champagne*

go here to read.

giving a bad name to "the country below thailand, above singapore" (yes, many do not know where or what MALAYSIA is) is one thing. but wheres the compassion? seriously? ugh. insensitive much? what if it was Malaysia facing what Japan's going through? not so funny anymore? yea. i thought so.

I Do

2011-03-13T16:54:00.000+08:00

such a happy song, am liking it :)

Distance

2011-03-13T10:17:00.002+08:00

distance changes everything.

we get too busy to talk to each other,

some just stop talking to one another.

some stop sharing stories of their life,

and some forget you even exist.

no matter how much we deny it,
we know it changes things.

On The Floor

2011-03-12T01:49:00.000+08:00

What Has Been Going On?

2011-03-07T15:13:00.003+08:00

my fridge has arrived *rolls around in joy* :D

mid terms are over. most assignments are done. most. *breathes*

life without drama for the past two weeks, loving it.

my neighbours probably have some hot make-out session every night, with all that noise =.=

staying back in uni to study after class this week onwards. social mode, off. nerd mode, on.

my life here in kl, summarized.

yes, the arrival of the fridge is an exciting moment in my life here. XD

Lightning

2011-03-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

so i was trying to sleep last night. well that didnt work, considering the amount of sleep i got. more like. no sleep. anyway there was a really huge thunderstorm in KL at about 3am. when i mean huge, its HUGE. think war of the worlds. yea that sorta thing. constant blinding lightning, striking almost every second, and ear-splitting thunder. and being up on the 18th floor doesnt exactly help me fall asleep with all this going on. but it got me wondering, as i was lying there are trying not to go blind, i asked myself; what causes lightning. yes i was tempted to jump out of bed to google it. in the middle of the night. lol. so anyway.
lightning occurs when liquid and ice particles above the freezing level collide,

and build up large electrical fields in the clouds.

Once these electric fields become large enough,

a giant "spark" occurs between them (or between them and the ground)

like static electricity, reducing the charge separation.

some of you probably knew that already. but for those who didnt, well now you know :)

and stuff like this? the kind of random things i like to know about when i have the time.

Its What You Make Of It

2011-03-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

you get hurt, you cry, you let it out.

when you're done crying,

you pull yourself together, deal with it, move on.

another lesson learnt, cos every experience,

whether or not we realize it,

teaches us something valuable.

its what we make of the things that happen.

Random Ranting

2011-03-02T16:00:00.003+08:00

warning: its a long post. read at your own risk.
the older generation often thinks that we're not bothered about what goes on around the world, saying we're oblivious to the issues at hand, and all we do is get addicted to social networking. the truth is, we're interested in reading about whats going on around us. we're interested in picking up a good novel to read. we're interested in randomly Google-ing say... history of the statue of liberty, or reading up on leaders and their past contributions, to name a few.

okay maybe not everyone is interested in that, but some of us actually are. but how do we do that, when all we're constantly doing is studying for a test, or rushing to meet deadlines that are all back-to-back? the times spent on social networking, they're usually our short breaks. after that, its back to the books. so short that its not enough for us to make time to do what we want to do to get smarter. why? cos we just dont HAVE the time. and no, its not about poor time management. i think its frustrating that we're being judged and stereotyped as the generation that's oblivious to their surroundings, or are self-absorbed. cos if you look close enough, if you were to understand what many of us are facing when it comes to studies, you'd understand. education then, and education now, they're different.

so much for 'whole education', when all we're doing is so result-oriented. and it starts from primary school. is it our education system? or is it how one believes the learning process should be carried out? give most of us a test on general knowledge, and you'll realize how low most would score. why? all we do is get tested on the stuff in our books. nothing about general knowledge, nothing about the world. so. who's to be blamed for the youth who are not able to think on their own? the youth who are said to be oblivious to world issues, or have no general knowledge whatsoever. who? reflect, and figure it out yourself. i'm not suggesting anything, but i think many know the answer.

yes i know i've probably strayed away from what i was initially talking about but the point is, we're gonna be "oblivious" and the "self-absorbed generation" if things dont change, cos there's more to education than exam grades.

good grades = good memorizing/understanding skills.

but it doesnt mean you're smart, without a strong general knowledge. just saying. so yea. we actually wanna know about what going on around the world, and to be able to have the time to randomly read on the history of things that interest us. we just dont have the time, and no, its not an excuse. its a fact that many from another generation refuse to acknowledge.

*no offence to those who feel offended*

Time Will Tell

2011-03-02T01:22:00.002+08:00

when you feel forgotten, when you are forgotten,

do you fight to be remembered?

or do you walk away as well?

most people would walk away.

but what if i wanna fight to be remembered?

would it be worth trying? we'll see.

Of Killing And Being Killed

2011-02-25T14:55:00.002+08:00

4days of non-blogging, sure felt long.

having mid-terms now, 2 down, 1 to go.

counselling skills paper was alright,

biopsychology killed me a few times over.

lets hope i'm the one who's doing the killing for developmental psych,

instead of being killed, like biopsych =.=

other than that, things have been good, still loving my hostel. weird, i know.